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Friday, October 9th, 2009
7:29 pm	If You Could Read My Mind - Gordon Lightfoot If you could read my mind, love, What a tale my thoughts could tell.. Just like an old-time movie, 'Bout a ghost from a wishin' well, In a castle dark, or a fortress strong, With chains upon my feet.. You know that ghost is me.. And I will never be set free, As long as I'm a ghost that you can't see... "If I could read your mind, love, What a tale your thoughts could tell, Just like a paperback novel - The kind the drugstores sell. When you reach the part, Where the heartaches come, The hero would be me.. But heros often fail... You won't read that book again, Because the ending's just too hard to take.. I'd walk away like a movie star Who gets burned in a three-way script.. Enter Number Two.. A movie queen to play the scene Of briging all the good things out in me; But for now, love, lets be real.. I never thought I could act this way, And I've got to say that I just don't get it; I don't know where we went wrong, But the feeling's gone, And I just can't get it back.. If you could read my mind, love, What a tale my thoughts could tell; Just like an old time movie, 'Bout a ghost from a wishin' well, In a castle dark, or a fortress strong, With chains upon my feet.. Stories always end... If you read between the lines, You'll know that I'm just trying to understand The feelings that you lack.. I never thought I could feel this way, And I've got to say that I just don't get it; I don't know where we went wrong, But the feeling's gone, And I just can't get it back... (Comment on this)
12:42 pm	More quotes "She laughed extremely hard, hoping to be liked. Then each drove home alone, staring straight ahead, with the very same twist to their faces." - David Foster Wallace, Brief Interviews With Hideous Men "I've felt the hate rise up in me, Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves, I wander out where you can't see; Inside my shell I wait and bleed..." Slipknot, Wait and Bleed "And nobody nowhere understands anything about me and all my dreams, lost at sea.." -Smashing Pumpkings, Stumbleine "And in the darkened underpass, I thought 'Oh God, my chance has come at last, But then a strange fear gripped me, And I just couldn't ask..." The Smiths, There Is A Light That Never Goes Out "And if a double-decked bus crashes into us, To die by your side - such a heavenly way to die! And if a 10-ton truck kills the both of us, To die by your side - well, the pleasure, the priveledge is mine.." The Smiths, There Is A Light That Never Goes Out "I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors, But I think that God's got a sick sense of humor, And when I die, I expect to find Him laughing.." -Depeche Mode, Blasphemous Rumors "Now you've made a mess of yourself; You've made a mess of everything; You're a mess; a fucking mess." -Orgy, Dizzy "You know, I wish that I had Jessie's girl.. I wish that I had Jessie's girl.. Where can I find a woman like that..? Like Jessie's girl? I wish that I had Jessie's girl.. Where can I find a woman..? Where can I find a woman like that..?" -Rick Springfield, Jessie's Girl "Then I'm looking in the mirror all the time, Wondering what she don't see in me, I've been funny; I've been cool with the lines.. Ain't that the way love supposed to be?" -Rick Springfield, Jessie's Girl "I would like to tell you, I would like to say, That I knew that this would happen; That things would go this way; But I cannot deceive you; this was never planned; I know that you're the right girl.. but do you think that I am the right man?" -She Wants Revenge, I Don't Want To Fall In Love "Right face.. wrong time.. she's sweet (But I don't wanna fall in love!) Too late - so deep - better run 'cause (I don't wanna fall in love) Can't sleep.. can't eat.. can't think straight (I don't wanna)" -She Wants Revenge, I Don't Want To Fall In Love "I'm tangled.. and broken.. Left scattered on the floor.. Its useless now, these pieces, they Can never make me whole.." -Stabbing Westward, Falls Apart "This is where it falls apart, This is where it falls apart; I feel helpless as my everything Comes crashing down on me This is where it falls apart, This is where it falls apart, I feel helpless as my fucking world Comes crashing down on me!" -Stabbing Westward, Falls Apart "Wasted, Useless, Pointless, Scattered, Broken, Hopeless, Wrinkled, Shattered, Withered, Blistered, Tired, Pointless Wasted, Useless, Scattered..." -Stabbing Westward, Falls Apart "I'm feeling the weight of the world, And its crushing me.. I'fe feeling the weight of everyday life, And its crushing me.. How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me? This world.. is crushing me..." -Stabbing Westward, Crushing Me "I've spent every moment since the day you left Attempting to regain the shattered remains of my pathetic life, Working to be someone you cabn be proud of; Someone you could love again. I've given you everything that I have to give; Everything I'm able to give Taking into consideration your reluctance To accept anything I have to offer.. I'm tired of living my life for you.. I'm tired of living for everyone else in this world.. I'm tired of..." -Stabbing Westward, Crushing Me "It's so wrong that I need you; It's so wrong that I need abuse; It's so wrong that I need you; It's so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone.." -Stabbing Westward, So Wrong "It's not like you can save me... It's not like you even care..." -Stabbing Westward, So Wrong (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 7th, 2009
12:05 pm	K-PAX "I wanna tell you something Mark, something you do not yet know, that we K-PAXians have been around long enough to have discovered. The universe will expand, then it will collapse back on itself, then will expand again. It will repeat this process forever. What you don't know is that when the universe expands again, everything will be as it is now. Whatever mistakes you make this time around, you will live through on your next pass. Every mistake you make, you will live through again and again, forever. So my advice to you is to get it right this time around. Because this time is all you have." -Prot (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
6:17 pm	Angel - Stabbing Westward "I find love humiliating; a sick and desperate need betrays me; God I hope I never feel again.." "She showed me love could lift me higher, With a kiss she repaired these broken wings.. She revived my failing spirit; restored my faith in everything I had never felt I had a home; even in a crowd I felt alone.. I'd almost given up on live; I believed its all a lie; I never thought I'd ever feel again.." What it felt like to have hope: "I believed in nothing... But you believe in me... I thought that life was worthless... But you told me I'm a star" (Comment on this)
Friday, October 2nd, 2009
6:42 pm	Random quotes from things that affect me today "If there's anything you want - anything at all - come to me - I'll be your guardian angel." -Juno Reactor, Guardian Angel "Every time I make myself get back up on my feet, It leads to wretched sorrow, ruin, and defeat." -The Retrosic, Tale of Woe "(laughter) 'Tis the oldest story in the book; he desires the one thing he cannot have.." -The Retrosic, Tale of Woe "Light and day is more than than you'll say 'Cause all my feeligns are more than I can let by; Or not - more than you've got.. Just follow the day; follow the day and reach for the sun.." -The Polyphonic Spree, Light and Day/Reach For the Sun "And the only thing keeping me dry is.. where I am..." -The Postal Service, The District Sleeps Alone Tonight "You seem so out of context, In this gaudy apartment complex; A stranger with your door key Explaining that I'm just visiting; And I am finally seeing Why I was the one worth leaving..." -The Postal Service, The District Sleeps Alone Tonight "Just a shy little guy, And I never knew why; Hadn't even lived, When I wanted to die Because I feared When a neared A sweet-smelling girl Or a pretty-faced gal; I was everybody's buddy - The Universal pal. Well - the days went by, And the years disappeared My freckles went away, And my face was clear; But the girls that I got Were the ones that were left, 'Cause the ones I wanted I couldn't get." -James Kavanaugh "Come to this Paradise, And watch it burn like a funeral pyre; And its raining fire, And I'm running away... Armageddon's come; Hope fulfills this last desire: I wanna live beside her; I wanna give it all away.. I want a break! I want a chance to leave this all behind me, But one look inside me, I want to turn and walk away... I want some faith! I want a lifetime for my dreams to find me.. I want to change it slightly... I want to burn it all away!!" -Stromkern, Armageddon "I'm such an asshole; God, I'm such a stain; I just keep fucking up again and again.." -Stabbing Westward, I Don't Believe "There are times when I'm just a shell; When I do not feel anything for anyone.. All I feel is hollow and bruised, Used up and misused; Forced to be someone I don't want to be... Have I failed somehow or someway? Will the weight of today Finally pull me down To drown In the depths of despair Where I am alone, Except for my rage...? My RAGE; My PAIN; I HATE my darkest days... My RAGE; My PAIN; I HATE my darkest days... My RAGE; My PAIN; I HATE my darkest days... My RAGE; My PAIN; I HATE my darkest days..." -Stabbing Westward, Darkest Days "Agh - I don't understand anything anymore. You know how I get through the day? In planned segments. I get up in the morning and I think: Okay, a sniper didn't get me for breakfast, lets see if I can go for my morning walk without being mugged. Okay, I finished my walk, let's see if I can make it back home without having a brick dropped on my head from the top of a building. Okay, I'm safe in the lobby, let's see if I can go up in the elevator without getting a knife in my ribs. Okay, I made it to the front door, let's see if I can open it without finding burglars in my living room. Okay, I made it to the living room, let's see if I can walk into the bedroom and not find the rest of my family dead. This God-damned city!!" - Carol, Little Murders by Jules Feiffer "Is it only love that lets you down? Is it only love that breaks your heart? Is it only love that tears you apart? Is it only love that breaks, that breaks, that breaks your heart?" -Gene Loves Jezebel, 2 Hungry Women "All my life I've learned, I'll just crash and burn.." -AMB, Overcome "God is gonna get sick of me, and the accident that takes the beat from my heart will look like it was my fault..." -Aberdeen City, God Is Going To Get Sick Of Me "If I had just one bullet, and a trigger, I'd pull it - shoot my Cupid out of the sky, break off his wings, and gouge out his eyes, and thank him for nothing 'cause that's all that he gave to me.." -New Years Day, Ready Aim Misfire "I used to be so big and strong, I used to know my right from wrong, I used to never be afraid, I used to be somebody... I used to have something inside, Now just this hole that's open wide, I used to want it all; I used to be somebody..." -NIN, Down In It "So how... how can I heal? How am I supposed to heal if I can't feel time?" -Leonard Shelby, Memento "Ive... seen things.. you people wouldn't believe.. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion.. I watched C-beams glitter in the darkness near the Tanhauser Gate. All those... moments, will be lost, in time.. like.. tears.. in the rain... Time.. to die..." -Roy, Bladerunner (3 Comments |Comment on this)
3:24 am	Tale of Woe - The Retrosic Every time I make myself get back up on my feet, It ends up wretched sorrow, ruin, and defeat... Trying not to break, but I'm so tired of God's embrace; It's time for me to leave now... It's time for me to leave. (laughter) 'Tis the oldest story in the book.. He desires the one thing he cannot have... Focus on the pain, Nothing else remained; The only thing that's real, Nothing more to feel. Priests preached at your grave; "God takes away what he once gave." Time starts slowing down, Sink until I drown. Falling... Crying... Caught in the undertow... Screaming... Bleeding... Caught in the undertow... Down... Down... Down... Down... Down... Focus on the pain, Nothing else remained; The only thing that's real, Nothing more to feel. The priests preached at your grave; "God takes away what he once gave." Time starts slowing down, Sink until I drown. Falling... Crying... Caught in the undertow... Screaming... Bleeding... Caught in the undertow... Praying... Dying... Caught in the undertow... Down... Down... Down... Down... Down... This is our tale of woe. This road is what we have to go down... down... down... down... down... (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 21st, 2008
1:25 pm	Nevada I realize I just posted a few weeks ago for my birthday, and posting again so soon is odd, and I've already told pretty much everyone, but over the weekend I visited my friend Chris in Nevada with Kevan. We went to go shooting, and Chris asked what we wanted to shoot - my response: "Everything that's illegal in California." So We tried out several guns, the highlight of which was the assault rifle.... ...with a suppressor (silencer - suppressor is the more politically correct term, and the one Chris used, but its the same thing). It kinda makes me want to move to Nevada myself, because it was awesome.. :-P The only thing that marred it was Chris not thinking and grabbing the end of the suppressor after we'd fired several rounds over the last minute or two and burning his hand. We also watched season 2 of Dexter. But the assault rifle with suppressor was AWESOME, seeing Chris was great, and it was a really fun weekend. Here's to more like it, except with less burning of hands! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 7th, 2008
3:42 pm	Birthday For my birthday I got to try chocolate-covered bacon. It was delicious. Also Babylon 5 and Final Fantasy IV DS are awesome. That is all. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 2nd, 2008
10:48 am	Goodbye Little Dog.. Well.. we just had to have Eric put to sleep. Fuck. He was such a cheerful little dog. He made me smile 100 times a day. He was small, and red, and cute, and loud, and fuzzy, and he was my little guy. And I miss him already... (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 15th, 2007
10:00 pm	Happy Day After (Fuck This Holiday) Day I often say that I hate women. And while this is true, I realized yesterday at work that I can help (some) women out, and so I should do that. Sindhu complained to Khanh for a half hour that her husband never gets her anything for Valentine's Day - she points out what she wants, and asks for flowers, and gets nothing. Khanh said that guys hate buying flowers, and its embarrassing going into the flower section. She argued that women need flowers and stuff to feel good about themselves. That night, Khanh went to the store, and saw a bunch of guys there, and decided to listen to Sindhu's advice, and bought his wife flowers. Her first question when he got home was "Oh my God... does this mean you're cheating on me and feeling guilty???" The moral of the story is that men should never listen to women or take their advice... :-P But I promised to help women! So I figured out a way to help women make sure that their boyfriends/husbands don't forget important holidays ever again. It won't work in all cases (such as if the man is self-employed and works out of the home) but the basic threat is "If you don't buy me flowers, I'll buy flowers for YOU and have them delivered to you at work." He may laugh it off. But he won't when, having done nothing for Valentine's Day, the next day he receives a bouquet of flowers. And then a bit later while talking to coworkers more flowers arrive for him. And eventually he'll have his whole cube filled with flowers, and all the guys will give him shit for it, because that's what we do. If the secretary could be made to announce the flowers over the intercom, that would work even better. "Will John Smith please report to the front desk; we've got another dozen roses for you, from a Mrs. Snoogly-Woogly...? She also wanted to remind you to pick up your hemmorhoid medication on the way home..." Once having gone through with this threat, the threat should be made again. "If you ever forget Valentine's day/my birthday/our anniversary again, I'll do this again, but worse." And he won't ever forget them again. I guarantee it. And there it is - advice that hopefully can help women everywhere. And I give this advice because I know that I never have to worry about it being used against me, and if I can make men in relationships everywhere a little unhappier, so much the better... :-P (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 11th, 2007
9:26 pm	Why Do My Electronics Hate Me When I Do Nothing But Shower Them With Love? So today: 1 - My Xbox 360 started making a horrible grinding noise - I pulled out the disk expecting it to have been scratched - it was fine - but the 360 can no longer recognize any disks - they all come up as "Unplayable disk." Apparently this is a problem that 3-5% of Xbox 360s have had, in which the dvd drive just dies. They'll fix it for free, but I'll be without my 360 for 15 days, which sucks because other than 24 that's about all I've been up to the last week. :( 2 - So I switched to the PS2 to watch some of Gankutsuou, The Count of Monte Cristo, and disk 2 started to play really choppy, skipping a lot - so I reset the system - couldn't read the dvd. I tried this 3 times, and it couldn't read it again. So I put it in my computer, and it worked fine. It's working in the PS2 now, but I suspect this probably means that my PS2 is also on its last legs. >< I'm afraid to turn on my PS3... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2007
1:57 am	Packages Because I've been a bit depressed, I went and did what I normally do - spent money on lots of little things. I ordered things that will be coming in 5 packages, from 4 different places. I ordered: Gankutsuou - The Count of Monte Cristo DVDs 1-6 Stabbing Westward - Darkest Days (Japanese Import) Berserk 12-14 3 cds D-Day (from the History Channel) Weird Weapons of World War II (from the History Channel) So far all that's gotten here is Gankutsuou disk 5. > (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 28th, 2007
12:11 pm	Merry Christmas (only a little over a month late) So its time to write about my Christmas. Mike and I kept the Christmas zombie movie tradition alive - this is four years now! The movie this year was "Zombie" which was his gift for me. Billed outside the United States as "Zombi 2" it was the unofficial sequel to George A. Romero's Dawn of the Dead. Released in 1979, it was controversial when it came out because of how gory it was. The tagline for the movie was "We are going to eat you." This movie has 3 things that make it very, very awesome. The first is the 10-minute underwater fight between a zombie and a shark. The second is that the zombies are all very slow moving, and all of the women in the movie, when confronted with a slow-moving zombie that will take like 30-60 seconds to get to them, don't try to run away. Not because they're brave, and going to fight the zombies (women fighting zombies.. yeah right... :-P ), but because they instead stand there, stare up and the sky, and scream for about 30 seconds until the zombies reach them and eat them. It very much reminded me of the scene in Austin Powers with the guy run over by the very slow-moving steam roller. Except that that was supposed to be funny, and this wasn't. The third is in the final climactic battle, they're all in this building with zombies coming in several different ways, and they have guns, and about 10 molotov cocktails. They use all of the molotov cocktails, but every single one is thrown short, and manages not to hit any zombies. "Die, damnit!! (throws molotov cocktail a few feet short - giant whoosh of flame) Quick!! Hand me another one!!" In conclusion, this is one of the "best" zombie movies that I've ever seen, and its awesome. The perfect picture was taken, but unfortunately its on Mike's mom's camera, so we don't have access to it yet - that's what I'd been waiting on. It's their family TV at the Zombie introduction screen with a corpse with maggots coming out of its eye on the right side of the picture.. and on the left, the family Christmas tree all decorated, and with all the lights going. It's the greatest picture ever taken, and I don't say that lightly. :-P But since I don't have access to that, I will instead post this audio clip that Rob grabbed off the DVD for me - this is a radio spot for the movie when it first came out. I put it on to whet your appetite. Enjoy. http://www.agilepro.com/stage/zombies.mp3 And then I'll end with another gift that I got - this one from Chris. It's a doll. A beautiful, beautiful doll. Let me introduce you to Cadaver the Clown: (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 26th, 2007
7:39 pm	Trouble It's often said that trouble comes in threes. And while I've never particularly noticed that to be true, I have noticed that when some things start going wrong, everything seems to start going wrong. I mention this because after having 3 fairly large things go wrong this week, there's now a 4th. I am sick. Right now, I'm not that sick, but I will be. When I get a cold, it often goes bronchial. And before it does, I generally have a day in which my chest feels.. different. And I cough, but there's nothing there to cough up yet. Well; there will be tomorrow. I also had a bit of a fever today at work, huddled in my chair in my coat shivering, while coworkers walked around in short sleeve shirts. And I never get cold. Also, with bronchial infections, I also usually get a sore throat. If I get it as bad as my dad, I'll be completely out of commission the next 3 days or so, and still be having some symptoms a week later. What makes this particularly frustrating is - I'll be sickest on the weekend, and then probably well enough to go to work next week, instead of using some of my sick days. AND Rob and I are through 5/6 of 24 season 3. I wanted to try to watch it with him tonight, but he had other plans - I wouldn't have been able to tonight anyway because I'm sick. But now the plans for tomorrow are shot, and possibly for Sunday and Monday as well. NEED. TO. KNOW. WHAT. HAPPENS. >< Hopefully common wisdom is wrong about bad things happening in threes.. because I really don't feel up to having another two go wrong in the near future. > (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
12:30 am	The First Crack..? I can't find the post where I first talked about this, but several years ago, I went to Berkeley, and sat down at a coffee shop. While sitting there, there was a dirty biker-guy who seemed to be trying to get my attention - he kept grunting at me. When I finally looked over, he very carefully drew an X across my face, and pointed at me. He did this a few times, and then leaned in, and whispered "Don't worry - it sticks." I'm not sure WHAT sticks, but drawing an X across my face also makes it seem as if he may have been trying to curse me. Well - that's no longer a problem. Because today, I was healed. I got onto my train, and there was another bum there - he smelled strongly of alcohol - who asked if his ticket was good for getting to Gilroy - I didn't know, but the trains to Gilroy had already stopped running. He said thanks then leaned over, saying "You have now been healed," and I said "Umm.." and he said "Your mother has now been healed too - you should give her a call." He then turned to walk away, while I said "Umm.. thanks!" He then turned back around and told me "You should say that to people - all you have to do is tell them they're healed, and it can work on all sorts of diseases like cancer, and aids, and save people a lot of money on medical care." "Umm.. ok - thanks.." So in conclusion - does the bum healing cancel out the bum curse? Is whatever sticks healed from me now? How exactly does this work? Or was the other some sort of weird bum blessing, and I've now been blessed and healed by the bums? Apparently I've also had the mystical bum healing power passed on to me... but should I use it for good, or evil? I've had a frustrating last several days. Last night I wandered around the neighborhood for about two hours, getting back at about 3 AM. (And FUCK was it cold - "colder than a witches tit" to use a crass expression I like.. :-P ) After the talk with the guy I did feel a bit better for awhile, probably because of getting away from a computer screen and the lab for a bit. But what the hell - it can't hurt. All of you have now been healed. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
4:32 pm	A Song of Ice and Fire http://www.variety.com/article/VR1117957532.html?categoryid=14&cs=1 This is my favorite series EVER. I would sell my soul for a bit role in this. And for a starring role, I'd sell my soul, and agree to kill everyone I know, and lead the slaughter of millions of innocents, and afterwards I would wade through their blood naked and cackling that it was worth it. However, since none of those are likely to happen, I'll probably just have to settle for ordering HBO.. >:( (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 14th, 2006
3:04 am	"Lookin' around me, you'd think: Sure; I could tap that.." This really amused me - and she really does sound like the real Ariel. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K4b7o4CJDdw (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
12:06 pm	Just remember - the best way to avoid dying alone... ...is to make sure you take a lot of people with you when you go.. :-P I haven't posted in forever; just figured I would now because I find it amusing how many more weaknesses I have than strengths - also, they didn't pick up on my pessimism, so they even managed to miss one.. :-P Hooray for dying alone..? Dating Strengths Dating Weaknesses 1. Sense of Humor - 85.7% 2. Financial Situation - 69.2% 3. Spirituality - 61.5% 1. Insecurity - 76.9% 2. Appearance - 66.7% 3. Shyness - 58.3% 4. Lack of Essentials - 58.3% 5. Selfishness - 54.5% Dating Strengths Explained Sense of Humor - Girls are attracted to people with a good sense of humor. Be sure to put yours on display! Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid girls who are only interested in your money. Spirituality - Your spiritual side brings you peace and balance, and keeps you grounded. This is attractive, as you can help reinforce this quality in other people. Dating Weaknesses Explained Insecurity - Your insecurity makes you doubt yourself, but you must learn to love and trust yourself if you want to succeed in dating. Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a girl's attention. Shyness - You know all too well the limits shyness places on you. Putting yourself out there in social situations may be difficult, but essential to your dating success. Lack of Essentials - Dating is difficult for you because you lack certain key things, which may include private space, a car, money, or a nice wardrobe. Work toward obtaining these essentials! Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to her needs. Take the Dating Strengths and Weaknesses Quiz (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 20th, 2006
1:11 pm	By popular demand... So.. its been awhile since I posted. So many things I could talk about. First-not caring what your neighbors think of you is waking up in the morning and having to take the dog for a walk, so doing so while wearing your pajamas and one of your slip-on sandals, and one of your mothers because your other one is lost, and you're to lazy to change clothes or put on real shoes. Second-one of my good friends got married at like 24 to a girl who was a few years older. Well, he's now 27, and her aunt just died. And all of the rest of her family is either single or in their late 60s-they're the only "vibrant young couple." So, they are now adopting his wife's 14-year-old cousin. Who has been a bit troubled. I... just don't even know what to say. I'm glad that 'I' didn't have to make that choice, because I probably would have made the wrong one.. Third-having the house by myself for a week is nice except that I can't drive, and I have to walk the dog at least three times a day. SO TIRED OF DOG WALKS. Was all geared up to take the driving test, got in the car-reached a stop sign a few blocks from home, tried to go-and the car wasn't having any of it. Push in on the gas-it revs up-nothing. Try switching it to park, then back to drive-nothing. Get out, and there's a puddle of transmission fluid under the car, and a trail of it all the way back to the house. So-get in the second car-and within 5 minutes its overheating in the red, and no heat is coming through the heater, and its apparently having engine problems and has to be taken to the dealer. Conclusion: I wasn't meant to have my license this week. Fourth-I finally caved, and am having Rob build me a kick-ass computer. I'll then be able to play Star Wars: Empire at War in the best graphics. I'm tempted to play as Empire and when I've almost won, amass a HUGE fleet, and retreat with everything to my capital so they conquer the rest of the galaxy... and then I can use the Death Star to blow up ever other planet in the galaxy and KILL EVERYBODY!!! If I could, I'd blow up my capital too... I don't need any other people, just my Death Star!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fifth-I hate WHQL. Sixth-I hate Vista. Seven-I hate Dell. Eight-I hate HP. Nine-I hate Acer. Ten-I hate eMachines. That is all. (for now) (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 15th, 2005
9:07 pm	Fucking bears! I haven't posted in a very long time. And I'm not really in much of a posting mood now, but what the hell. Last week we lost to UCLA is was heart-breaking-we outplayed them. We should've won-we had twice the yardage that they did. Our special teams made a few mistakes, and one huge one-when someone yelled "get off the field!" to some players near the edge one of our freshman thought they were yelling at him, and nobody noticed-and so we played a man down when we knew they were going to fake a punt, and the guy who got the ball was the one the freshman was going to cover. It sucked. Well-we lost today too to Oregon State. We were expected to win. We didn't. We didn't deserve to. We lost 23-20 and it shouldn't have been that close. We couldn't do anything today. One of our star runningbacks fumbled twice. Our quarterback went 13/39, and fumbled and threw an interception-and threw what would've been another if there hadn't been a penalty. They ALSO almost had another touchdown, but their guy fumbled it inches from the end zone, and one of their players picked it up-with a foot out of bounds, so it was a touchback. So we're out of the BCS rankings, and its very frustrating. I wish we had a quarterback this year. Other things.. WHQL is sucking-I've been putting at least another hour into work every day the last two weeks, and will have to go in to work next weekend to try to get things done before an upcoming release. I played ICO, and it was really cool, and very different. There's very little dialogue. You are a 12 year old kid who is taken to this castle and locked in a chamber to be sacrificed because you were born with horns. So you get out of the cage, and you find this girl-you find otu later that her name is Yorda-and she is kindof an image of light-she wears this light, feathery dress-and you have to try to get you, and her, out of the castle. These shadow creatures keep trying to steal her away, and you have to fight them off. The rest of the time you're trying to solve puzzles to be able to get out, and grabbing her by the hand to make her run, and drag her along by the hand. It's done really well, and was one of the first games to make me feel something for awhile. They're releasing another game in about a week. I'll be buying it. No new women in my life-no surprise. The hot receptionist at work with the kid left, and we now have the first receptionist I met back-she's a nice, middle-aged lady. I was hoping, however, for a new hot chick. >< I watched Serenity-twice-and its really awesome. I still need to see The 40-Year-Old Virgin and Two For The Money. Two For The Money I've heard some bad things about it, but it has Al Pacino and Mathew Macanahey, who I usually like, and Seth said it was good, and its by the director of The Salton Sea, which I love. Have to read the most recent Harry Potter books still. In a bit less than a month the new Martin book comes out-when it does, you guys won't be hearing from me until its done. The only things I'll leave the house for are work, and football. And hopefully I can read it all in a weekend so work won't be an issue. :-P I may be trying also to take a day off to head to SF to try to get a book or two signed. It's on like a Thursday, which sucks, and my not being able to drive is once again kicking my ass, so we'll see. I've been getting a little practice, so that's good. But I'd really like to get my books signed. Also have been playing Fantasy Football with my coworkers. So far I'm 3-2. It was a $100 buy in. Third place gets their money back, second gets $300, and first place gets $800. So I'm hoping for something, but expecting to lose the money. Though that only comes out to like $8 a week, so its not that bad. I still would rather have only paid like $20 or $50, but I'd still do it at $100 again next year-its actually a lot of fun. I'll be buying a PSP in the next few weeks after GTA:Liberty City Stories comes out-it'll be awesome. May have to wait until next month though, since this month I just bought an ipod yesterday. I went with the 30GB video ipod-it should be arriving in the next few days. And then-I won't have to carry cds with me everywhere anymore. HUZZAH! Guess that's all I feel like saying now, and more than most of you are going to read, so until next time, I bid you all adieu. (6 Comments |Comment on this)